Monday, May 24, 2010

Chapter 2: What do I fight for first? @ 12:49 PM

 It was Monday and I woke up at 6 a.m. As I was brushing my teeth I was thinking "Stupid school! Why do I even have to go there?" You know, reader, on the other hand I loved going to school because I've found some great friends there.
 Just to fill you in, I'm in 9th grade. The previous year was magical, we had just 6 classes and now they were like 15. Anyway, with the time passing by I got used to my new school and new classmates. There were some I couldn't stand but if it wasn't for the new school I wouldn't have found my new best friend in the entire universe, Manie. But I called her Mousie (cutter from Mouse).
 I got ready and went to school. Everyday was perfectly the same. I would go, have fun during breaks, be bored during periods and then go home, study and spend my free time chatting with friends. I was so wrong! I had no clue the day would turn out to be one of the most important days in my life. A turning point for my future!
 School ended, I went home and immediately went to check my e-mail as if I knew something important was waiting for me there. I saw a letter from twitter.com and remembered I had an account there. "Hm, why don't I use it? It may be fun..." so I logged in and a wave of Justin Bieber's fans blew me away. "What's so special about this guy anyway? I've heard about a lot of singers..haha" But I was so completely wrong thinking this way. And when I played "Baby" my whole world turned upside down. His music made me smile, something no one and nothing have succeeded to do for a very long time. The fact, though, that he got famous thanks to youtube was amazing and impressive.
 All that Bieber stuff got me thinking about acting. I've acted since I was 4 years old and I wanted to become an actress so badly. Apart from that I had other problems, too. School, boys and a mother.
 "Oh God, why did I wanted to study Spanish? It's soooo hard! Duh, can anyone help me? PLEASE?" That was my opinion of the language. And all those things I had to remember for my other 14 classes..so not cool!
 And as I didn't have any other things on my mind, I couldn't stop thinking about boys. I've never had a decent boyfriend. The last one was a year younger and he was a mess. Oh, and he lived 60 kilometers away from me.. We were together for about 2 months. I'm not even sure how we made it for that long.
 The most interesting of all were the fights with my mother. I felt like she adopted me and didn't want me to know it. We were so much NOT alike! To prove it I'll tell you about that same day I found my biggest inspiration, Bieber.
 As I was listening to "Stuck In The Moment", which turned out to be my favourite song of his, my mother got back home. I would usually go to see her but this time I didn't. She came in my room and said:
 -"Turn that music down. What do you want? To blow my ears off?"
 -"Yeah, maybe..Thanks for the idea.", I wasn't in the mood for arguments but she went on.
 -"Don't talk to me like that. Get up and do your homework"
 -"I already did", I lied and I didn't feel guilty. I just wanted to lay on my bed for the rest of the day and listen to Justin's music.
 Luckily, Mom just left my room. She didn't even ask if I was hungry, how my day was or if I needed to talk to someone. And to be honest, it was all the same to me wether somebody cared about my day and my hunger. I was in a real need to have an adult to share my problems with, though. But it was my Mom after all. She didn't care about what was bothering me or like I said in my mind:
 -"She doesn't give a shit about the thing torturing me these days".
 That day I did almost nothing except for when I ate a sandwich. My fight was just starting and I wasn't even sure what I would fight for first but I was totally going to get where I was heading for.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Chapter 2: What do I fight for first? @ 12:49 PM

 It was Monday and I woke up at 6 a.m. As I was brushing my teeth I was thinking "Stupid school! Why do I even have to go there?" You know, reader, on the other hand I loved going to school because I've found some great friends there.
 Just to fill you in, I'm in 9th grade. The previous year was magical, we had just 6 classes and now they were like 15. Anyway, with the time passing by I got used to my new school and new classmates. There were some I couldn't stand but if it wasn't for the new school I wouldn't have found my new best friend in the entire universe, Manie. But I called her Mousie (cutter from Mouse).
 I got ready and went to school. Everyday was perfectly the same. I would go, have fun during breaks, be bored during periods and then go home, study and spend my free time chatting with friends. I was so wrong! I had no clue the day would turn out to be one of the most important days in my life. A turning point for my future!
 School ended, I went home and immediately went to check my e-mail as if I knew something important was waiting for me there. I saw a letter from twitter.com and remembered I had an account there. "Hm, why don't I use it? It may be fun..." so I logged in and a wave of Justin Bieber's fans blew me away. "What's so special about this guy anyway? I've heard about a lot of singers..haha" But I was so completely wrong thinking this way. And when I played "Baby" my whole world turned upside down. His music made me smile, something no one and nothing have succeeded to do for a very long time. The fact, though, that he got famous thanks to youtube was amazing and impressive.
 All that Bieber stuff got me thinking about acting. I've acted since I was 4 years old and I wanted to become an actress so badly. Apart from that I had other problems, too. School, boys and a mother.
 "Oh God, why did I wanted to study Spanish? It's soooo hard! Duh, can anyone help me? PLEASE?" That was my opinion of the language. And all those things I had to remember for my other 14 classes..so not cool!
 And as I didn't have any other things on my mind, I couldn't stop thinking about boys. I've never had a decent boyfriend. The last one was a year younger and he was a mess. Oh, and he lived 60 kilometers away from me.. We were together for about 2 months. I'm not even sure how we made it for that long.
 The most interesting of all were the fights with my mother. I felt like she adopted me and didn't want me to know it. We were so much NOT alike! To prove it I'll tell you about that same day I found my biggest inspiration, Bieber.
 As I was listening to "Stuck In The Moment", which turned out to be my favourite song of his, my mother got back home. I would usually go to see her but this time I didn't. She came in my room and said:
 -"Turn that music down. What do you want? To blow my ears off?"
 -"Yeah, maybe..Thanks for the idea.", I wasn't in the mood for arguments but she went on.
 -"Don't talk to me like that. Get up and do your homework"
 -"I already did", I lied and I didn't feel guilty. I just wanted to lay on my bed for the rest of the day and listen to Justin's music.
 Luckily, Mom just left my room. She didn't even ask if I was hungry, how my day was or if I needed to talk to someone. And to be honest, it was all the same to me wether somebody cared about my day and my hunger. I was in a real need to have an adult to share my problems with, though. But it was my Mom after all. She didn't care about what was bothering me or like I said in my mind:
 -"She doesn't give a shit about the thing torturing me these days".
 That day I did almost nothing except for when I ate a sandwich. My fight was just starting and I wasn't even sure what I would fight for first but I was totally going to get where I was heading for.