After my "hiding place experience", a week went by without anything strange happening. Well, except for the fact that Mat has entirely changed. He was really nice to me and the biggest surprise of all was that he stopped snogging around with whoever wants to make out with him.
That change in Mat was bothering me, though. It was just weird to see him act like this. And I've also got other things on my mind...like school and а Mom. She promised to buy me an iPhone but as she was often lying to me how was I supposed to believe her? Plus it was 2 weeks before June and the big exams would just star coming as soon as June started! What to solve first?
Oh, I forgot to share with you the biggest thing scratching me on the inside! That was Justin. My letter with the CD had to be delivered already, but I had no sign whether it had happened or not. It was driving me insane not knowing anything and every day I would spend hours wondering about that.
Another week rolled by and it was Tuesday. Great! I had two periods of Math on Tuesdays and I was good at Math, so I always had fun in those classes.
Erh, question: Why didn't anybody tell me what a day I would have to relieve? If I'd been told I wouldn't have woken up! As soon as I got up from my bed and went to the bathroom, so I could brush my teeth, I hit my head in the bathroom door. I hit it so hard I can swear I saw stars falling from the sky! Maybe I'm overreacting it but it still hurt like hell.
The next strange thing that "hit" me was my hair. It was perfectly in place, just as I've always dreamed of it to be. Well, that wasn't a bad thing, just surprinsing..
I got dressed..one of my favourite blue T-shirts with a cute dolphin on it and black jeans. Then I went to the living room and turned on the TV. Guess what happened? "Baby" was on The Voice. I got so happy I started dancing and singing, and woke up the family.
That wasn't a bad start of the day, except that my head was still hurting when I left for school. Well, not bad at first.
I went out of the apartment and saw the bus. "What the HECK? It's only 6:40am, it's supposed to leave the bus station at 6:40 and be here 5 minutes later!" But I didn't have time to ask myself more questions, I rushed out and started running. Luckily, I was living near the bus stop, so I managed to catch the bus.
"Well, running in the morning..not bad.", I told myself as I was trying to find a seat.
I looked around and saw a guy who seemed familiar. I went closer and it was Mat. "What the HECK?...again.", it seemed that would be on replay on my mind the whole day.
I tried to hide myself as I didn't want to sit next to him. Since he has been so nice to me, I felt he wanted something. I mean, I'd known Mat for years and he was such a player. "There must be something he wants from me.", but as my mind was talking to me Mat spotted me and smiled. I had no other choice but to go and sit next to him.
"Heeey. How are you?", he said all sweet and loving, and kind...and I got confused.
"I'm good, actually not so good..I hit my head in the bathroom door this morning. It still hurts." I let out a small laugh as I said that.
"And the strange things just keep on happening!", I told myself as Mat leaned and kissed my forehead. Oh and of course my first thought was "What the HECK?" I guess I was right earlier about this thought spying on me.
"It's gonna be good. How did you sleep last night anyway? Any sweet dreams worth coming true?", Mat said with a smile.
"Any sweet dreams worth happening true? What the f*** Mat? What's gotten into you?", my mind was going crazy about all this Mat drama. I didn't know what to think anymore, I didn't know what the change in him was about. Anyway I answered his question.
"I slept good, amazing but I didn't dream of anything. Why? Did you?"
His smile disappeared in the exact same moment I asked him! He turned his head, trying not to look in my eyes. And looking out of the window he said: "Uhhrm, yes."
"Oh, really? What did you dream about?"
"Can I keep it a secret?", I got him. He was feeling uncomfortable.
"Come on and I'll tell you about how I dreamed of a dolphin kidnapping me when I was little."
That was a little lie..but just a little one. I wanted to know his dream so badly that I was prepared to make up some crazy dream. But Mat wasn't easy to break.
"Hm, no. I better keep it to myself."
"But you said it was a good one, right?"
"Yeah, so what?", he seemed confused.
"Well if it was good, you probably would want it to happen. Am I right?"
He was still confused but said "Yes, I guess I want."
"Well, then you gotta tell it to someone before noon and it will become true. Come on, tell me."
"What? Why? You just made that up."
"No, I didn't. It's an old myth actually. My grandma told me when I was 5 and I dreamed I had a pony."
"Yeah, and did you get a pony?", he was trying to sound calm and cool, but I could still hear the unconfidence in his voice.
"No, but I got the chance to see one.", saying that I forced my biggest smile ever.
"Right...there's no way I'm telling you my dream. So, go ahead and tease me." he laughed and wrapped his arms around me.
During the rest of the ride to school we said nothing to each other. He was holding me in his hands and I didn't fight against it. I was ok with it. Actually it felt really good hugging him. That was, at least, the opinion of my heart.
My mind, on the other hand, was going nuts about it. I kept telling to myself "What are you doing? Pull away of that stupid hug.. No, it feels good. Yes, it does but you gotta stop! Are you falling for Mat? No waay!"
My heart and mind were fighting. And when we arrived in front of the school my mind won the battle and I pulled away really quick and rushed out of the bus. Mat followed me and started asking questions.
"Hey, what happened? Did I do something wrong?"
He was confused. Really confused! And I just kept walking not saying anything, even not looking at him, like he never said anything and like he wasn't there running after me.
"Inaa! Stop, please. Tell me what's wrong?", he grabbed my hand and turned me to face him.
I could see the sadness in his eyes. Those gorgeous blue eyes were looking at me as if they were saying "We won't be able to move on if you don't give us an explanation." I couldn't do that to Mat, I couldn't be so cold-hearted.
"It's nothing.", I said and tried to start walking again but failed because Mat had a tight grip. Well, of course. He was a boy.
"No, there's something. I can see it, tell me."
"There's nothing, okay? Let's go in, it's cold out here."
It's cold out here? What the...? It was May! Mat, of course, didn't fell for that but he said nothing more and just walked in the school with me.
We got to the 3rd floor to our classroom and started discussing the homework.
Now feels like the right moment to explain something. Here, in Bulgaria, we are five groups 9th graders: 9 a, 9 b, 9 c, 9 d and 9 e. We have our classrooms and we have all the classes there, except for Sports and music. And Mat and I.. we are in 9 a grade. Also in the classroom the desks are for two, so we're sitting in pairs. I'm, of course, sitting with Nadie. And every group has a teacher who is responsible for them, we call him/her the headteacher. My headteacher is my English teacher, and his name's Mr Brown.
The period I had English. I loved those classes! In 8th grade I've managed to learn all the grammar and go to the National Olympiad in English. Mr Brown was really proud of me and that made me really happy.
When Mr B walked in the room I was talking to Nadie. She was telling me about the boys that have signed up for the hip-hop classes. But our talk was interrupted because the theacher said:
"Now, listen class. You're gonna be sitting as I tell you to." the whole class started complaining but he cut us off "Silence, changed are good."
I loved sitting with Nadie. She was my best friend and we always helped each other at tests. I could count on her...and not only for school. I could count on her for everything. And until the teacher called her name I was hoping that he would leave us two like this. Well, I was wrong... Nadie had to sit with Kate. To tell you the truth, I liked Kate. She was sweet and kind to everyone. She was also a little crazy like me and Nadie.
I felt a piece of happiness running through my heart because of Kate and Nadie sitting together and another piece when Mandy was told to sit next to Brandon. He was a shy guy but he was also sweet just like Kate. But for Mandy, he was probably a nightmare.
Then my cup of pieces was suddenly empty. When Mr Brown said "Ina and..let's see. Yeah, Ina and Mat, you'll be sitting together..3rd desk in the middle." my heart sank.
"Why Mat? What is this? The congress of confusion?" but Mat sat next to me and smiled, so I had to smile back and stop thinking. The class was over and Nadie and I "reunited".
"Hey, where are you going?" Mat asked when I stood up from my chair.
"The cafeteria with Nadie. Do you want something?"
"No, thanks."
We had a 20-minute break after first periods, so we could go and have something for breakfast because starting school at 7:30am was early and most students often didn't have time to eat at home...just like me.
I went to the cafeteria with Nadie and Kate. We talked and laughed. Kate was cool and I was happy she was with us. You know, it was always Nadie and I everywhere, it was great to have a third person around. Maybe we were going to be a trio...three best friends. Who knew?
We didn't buy anything for breakfast but we bought a lot of candy and cokes. We then walked around the school and went upstairs to our classroom. It was empty except for two people.
Mandy was sitting on my desk flirting with Mat. Well, I didn't know for sure but Susan broke up with Mat because he was making out with Mandy. So what else could have they been doing? What I didn't know was that another surprise was waiting for me. As I walked in with Nadie and Kate, Mandy turned around and said:
"Well, well, we were just talking about you." and smiled at me.
I hate her! What was wrong with her? Why was she talking to me?
"What?" I said with anger and hate in my voice.
"Mat here just rejected me."
"So? What it has to do with me?"
"He didn't wanna make out with me."
"I still don't get it.. why do I have to care, especially if it's about you?", this was confusing, really confusing.
"He told me you two were going out and he won't cheat. That was his reason, is it true?"
My mouth dropped open but Mandy didn't see it because she turned to face Mat. I was ready to shout when he made a puppy-dog face which he made only when he needed me to do something for him. I knew he wanted me to help him. But still..why the f*** did he have to tell her such a thing?
"Yeah, it's true." I forced an evil smile.
Nadie looked at me like I was some crazed dude getting high in school. And Kate was smiling as if this was the moment she was waiting for her entire life. Like we were in some telenovela and the lead actors have to be in love but someone has always been on their way..well, you know what I mean.
"Right, prove it then.", Mandy said and laughed.
Gash, she was laughing like Cruela. I hated her. And how to prove it? I had a suggestion..I could throw her out of the window, would that have proved it?
"And how are we supposed to prove it?", I asked feeling confident because I thought there wasn't a way we could possibly prove such thing.
"Kiss, of course.", she said with another smile.
"Whha..?", I tried to protest but Mat quickly stood up, got me by the waist and kissed me.
His lips on mine. It felt so good. It felt like...paradise. And when he used his tongue it was magical. I've never been kissed like this before. Kissing Mat was completely different from my past experience. It felt that he was leading me, as if he was trying to make it clear he was the guy in the relationship.
When we pulled away Mandy was gone, Nadie's mouth was dropped open and Kate was so unbelievably happy.
"Are you two really going out together?", she asked in excitement.
"Of course not, Kate. What was that all about..Mat?", Nadie asked obviously confused and angry at him.
He didn't pay her any attention and turned to me.
"I'm sorry I just wanted to get rid of her and I told her we were going out. And...I'm sorry."
"It's ok. We'll just forget about that, okay?", I said with a smile on my face.
Then all our classmates came, my Math teacher, Mrs Anderson came too and the class started. During it Mat wrote me a note *About what you said..we kind of can't forget about it. Mandy is 100% gonna tell everybody. We have to pretend?* Ah, right, no way! What was he thinking? That I'm gonna be his girlfriend from now on because some bitch thought I was? But I wrote *We can play it like we break up soon and all will be as it was, right?* I looked at him when I handed him the note. His face went from happy to sad when he read what I'd written but anyways he wrote *Yeah, okay. Whatever you say:)*
The day was almost over, just one more period - Sports. I went to the gym with Mat. He had forgotten his shorts and T-shirt for the class, so he asked the teacher to give him some. After changing in the ladies lockers, I went outside at the volleyball court. And just when I was talking to Kate about something, Mat came out from the boys changing rooms and I cracked up laughing. He was looking really funny.
"What are you laughing at, lady?", he said when he came up to me.
"Hmm...let's see. Some boy looking like a clown in funny shorts."
"Yeah, right. Thank you very much.", he laughed.
"Sorry, I just can't help myself."
Then we separated in two teams and started playing volleyball. I was in a team with Mat, the game was rough. But in the end, our team won. I was so happy I started running to Mat. I was going to give him a hug as a present for the winning but instead of just a hug it turned into a kiss.
When I reached him, Mat grabbed me by the waist, picked me up from the ground and kissed me. It was so passionate. I felt like I was flying and then I reached the clouds of happiness. I've never felt better in my whole life.
iPod Touch
Guitar
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Chapter 5: As if I don't have enough things on my mind @ 4:49 PM 
